I'm still in the process of reclaiming myself, transforming myself an breaking free from who i was in the past. Some days doing so is easy for me, some days a bit more difficult ("schweriger" in german), some days like a truly uphill battle.
Oh, Elin. Yes, you're absolutely right. When my emotions start fluctuating, i've tried drawing and it has worked perfectly for me (I pick my pencil, draw sth in my sketchbook, then when i feel calmer, i put it aside and restart practicing German).
I have lived several lives, and one of the most helpful things I have learnt is that when things look bleak, they will not stay that way forever, and difficult though it is, concentrating on the sunny uplands of tomorrow is a sure way to move forward with optimism.
Thank you so much for sharing this Tom, and you’re so very right, things will never stay the same for good and bad so it’s in finding the ways to get through the lows. Appreciate you being here ☺️
I used to coach around self-worth and this was a major theme - oscillating (thrashing around) between too much and not enough.
I’m so glad you are settling into unapologetic ways. It’s been my way for a good few years now, I had to let go of ‘people might think I’m arrogant / rude / annoying…’
So bloody liberating.
Also, the crucial part we miss is that this is not actually all about us.
It’s about shining the light God / Source put within us. This is actually humility. It is bowing to a greater force and saying ‘thank you for animating me just as I am’.
I see it as the practice of reverence for all that we are, honouring all that we are, so that we can feel fulfilled and joyful AND so we model this to our children, our friends and family, even our ‘enemies’. Because being unapologetic about who we are is what we actually all want, we’ve just learned a very limited spectrum of what’s ‘acceptable’.
Thank you so much for sharing this with me Sarina, you have no idea how well timed this land 🙏🏼 I’m definitely going through a tumultuous time and I so resonate when you say that we’ve been taught only such a limited array of what’s acceptable. And that really it’s not only about us but to say thank you and recognise the light within… 😮💨 your words are an equal exhale as it was for me to write this piece. I feel that things are shifting and I’m looking forward to keep growing stronger into it ❤️
You are so welcome. You’ve already given yourself so much permission, and even if you don’t see it modelled to you, you get to be that person who models it, the person that everyone secretly thanks for being so bold and bright 💜
This made me tear up just now, thank you for seeing me 🫶🏼 it’s one thing to give oneself permission to follow desires of what to do and where to live, but it’s a whole other level of work to peal off the layers and deeply recognise that there’s still conditioning in the way I show up privately that I have to address. Artistry and expression come easy to me, but I never realised the depth at which this process would eventually stir things up… hard in the moment but I see the light at the end of the tunnel 🙏🏼💕
Elin you’re such a powerhouse and these realisations are surely shaking things up. 💃
I’m with you in terms of using tools instead of attaching our identity to them 100%. I used to get so triggered by human design, astrology, personality tests etc but am starting to use what resonates and leave what doesn’t.
You’re not alone in this tricky time and maybe it helps you to know that others have been through some wild times 😵💫
My Saturn return was an absolute shit show I tore down everything that gave me stability in my life. Major relationship, job and living situation shifts like an earthquake moved my world. It was exhausting and freeing and took time. And yet I had this deep knowing things can’t stay the same.
Above all I found it so freeing to leave my 20s behind and slowly ground more into who I am, unapologetically, as you said, too.
I had a bit of a challenging week last week and thankfully had a beautiful mentor who reminded me that we light the fire but we cannot save everyone from burning themselves. Aka we don’t carry the responsibility to protect others from our own inner fire that we carry into the world. Tend to the fire and stop worrying about the rest.❤️This reminder was so freeing. 🔥
Elin, do you ever check in on Pam Gregory? I just love her YouTube content on astrology sooo much - she’s all about raising awareness and empowerment from a cosmic perspective.
🌞
I like to put her suggestions about what to look for each month into ChatGPT…
🌝
This month was: (I put my sun, moon, and rising and then wrote …) Venus starts to fall retrograde at the beginning of of March 2025 at 10 degrees of Aries and will be spending about three months in Aries and two months in Pisces… speak to me as Pam Gregory would about what that could mean for my expansion and growth.
A beautiful gem of an essay, Elin—thank you. I feel a kinship with your rebirth here, going through some similar earthquakes myself.
Peripheral to your ‘unapologetically too much,’ I’ve taken up with ‘I’m not for everyone’… breaking loose of the pressures to conform that build insidiously through our adulthood. We’re free to be!!
I'm still in the process of reclaiming myself, transforming myself an breaking free from who i was in the past. Some days doing so is easy for me, some days a bit more difficult ("schweriger" in german), some days like a truly uphill battle.
Oh I feel you! It’s fluctuating for me too, but I think opening up and talking about it is a step in the right direction already 🥰
Oh, Elin. Yes, you're absolutely right. When my emotions start fluctuating, i've tried drawing and it has worked perfectly for me (I pick my pencil, draw sth in my sketchbook, then when i feel calmer, i put it aside and restart practicing German).
Oh yes, art is the best remedy - same for me 🥰🙏🏼
Absolutely. Art is the best remedy😉
Very life affirming.
I think that astrology is a very colourful idea.
I have lived several lives, and one of the most helpful things I have learnt is that when things look bleak, they will not stay that way forever, and difficult though it is, concentrating on the sunny uplands of tomorrow is a sure way to move forward with optimism.
Thank you so much for sharing this Tom, and you’re so very right, things will never stay the same for good and bad so it’s in finding the ways to get through the lows. Appreciate you being here ☺️
Fuck yes!! This is beautiful to read 🎉🎉🎉
I used to coach around self-worth and this was a major theme - oscillating (thrashing around) between too much and not enough.
I’m so glad you are settling into unapologetic ways. It’s been my way for a good few years now, I had to let go of ‘people might think I’m arrogant / rude / annoying…’
So bloody liberating.
Also, the crucial part we miss is that this is not actually all about us.
It’s about shining the light God / Source put within us. This is actually humility. It is bowing to a greater force and saying ‘thank you for animating me just as I am’.
I see it as the practice of reverence for all that we are, honouring all that we are, so that we can feel fulfilled and joyful AND so we model this to our children, our friends and family, even our ‘enemies’. Because being unapologetic about who we are is what we actually all want, we’ve just learned a very limited spectrum of what’s ‘acceptable’.
Thank you so much for sharing this with me Sarina, you have no idea how well timed this land 🙏🏼 I’m definitely going through a tumultuous time and I so resonate when you say that we’ve been taught only such a limited array of what’s acceptable. And that really it’s not only about us but to say thank you and recognise the light within… 😮💨 your words are an equal exhale as it was for me to write this piece. I feel that things are shifting and I’m looking forward to keep growing stronger into it ❤️
You are so welcome. You’ve already given yourself so much permission, and even if you don’t see it modelled to you, you get to be that person who models it, the person that everyone secretly thanks for being so bold and bright 💜
This made me tear up just now, thank you for seeing me 🫶🏼 it’s one thing to give oneself permission to follow desires of what to do and where to live, but it’s a whole other level of work to peal off the layers and deeply recognise that there’s still conditioning in the way I show up privately that I have to address. Artistry and expression come easy to me, but I never realised the depth at which this process would eventually stir things up… hard in the moment but I see the light at the end of the tunnel 🙏🏼💕
Ahh 🙌🏽 makes me so happy to hear 💜
I have absolutely reclaimed myself. And astrology is so confirming and reassuring. As above, so below. ✨🙏🏼 ✨
Yay fantastic! Thank you for sharing Alyson 😍🙏🏼
Great post! Thanks for the morning read
Thanks Vince I’m so glad you enjoyed it :)
Elin you’re such a powerhouse and these realisations are surely shaking things up. 💃
I’m with you in terms of using tools instead of attaching our identity to them 100%. I used to get so triggered by human design, astrology, personality tests etc but am starting to use what resonates and leave what doesn’t.
You’re not alone in this tricky time and maybe it helps you to know that others have been through some wild times 😵💫
My Saturn return was an absolute shit show I tore down everything that gave me stability in my life. Major relationship, job and living situation shifts like an earthquake moved my world. It was exhausting and freeing and took time. And yet I had this deep knowing things can’t stay the same.
Above all I found it so freeing to leave my 20s behind and slowly ground more into who I am, unapologetically, as you said, too.
I had a bit of a challenging week last week and thankfully had a beautiful mentor who reminded me that we light the fire but we cannot save everyone from burning themselves. Aka we don’t carry the responsibility to protect others from our own inner fire that we carry into the world. Tend to the fire and stop worrying about the rest.❤️This reminder was so freeing. 🔥
Ooooh loved this…
Elin, do you ever check in on Pam Gregory? I just love her YouTube content on astrology sooo much - she’s all about raising awareness and empowerment from a cosmic perspective.
🌞
I like to put her suggestions about what to look for each month into ChatGPT…
🌝
This month was: (I put my sun, moon, and rising and then wrote …) Venus starts to fall retrograde at the beginning of of March 2025 at 10 degrees of Aries and will be spending about three months in Aries and two months in Pisces… speak to me as Pam Gregory would about what that could mean for my expansion and growth.
🪐
It’s sooo fun to see the result!🌜🌗🌛
A beautiful gem of an essay, Elin—thank you. I feel a kinship with your rebirth here, going through some similar earthquakes myself.
Peripheral to your ‘unapologetically too much,’ I’ve taken up with ‘I’m not for everyone’… breaking loose of the pressures to conform that build insidiously through our adulthood. We’re free to be!!